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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.  
Monday, April 20, 2009 I feel officially fuck-ed up right now.. I feel almost empty, but I can't deny the feeling of utter disappointment somewhere in my heart for a few particular things.. Hahah..What's new.. N I feel like shit..Cuz due to lack of sleep for 38 hours straight, only getting to nap less then 15 minutes whenever I can, which is only about 3 to 4 times, and after that 38 hours, only abt 3 hours of sleep..ZzZZzzzZZZzz.. Weekends have been interesting and crazy as well..There were one two major setbacks..Otherwse would have been fine, despite that the two days were filled with, erm, not so good things that happened..Like, my friends got into a minor accident while we were out riding, and another friend's bike piston got jammed..Poor thing..Haix.. Two setbacks..One is THEM..Two is a PERSON.. To THEM - please leave me alone now, ok..i dun need the dunno how many pple of u anyways.. To PERSON - stop confusing me..either yes or no.. To a different Them..I guess sorry doesnt cut it anymore, despite me feeling it, cuz apprently I will do it all over again..If you guys can't forgive me, then I guess I have to accept it as how it is..I guess I don't deserve friends like you..My last, as it was put, empty, apology to you all..And Happy Advanced Birthday..If you could receive it.. To my Bestie & my dear sister..Thank you my dears..I dunno what I'd do without you two..I think I'd be doing something stupid by now..HAHAH..Or perhaps not, cuz I don't find stupid things to fulfill this whatever, so there's no point doing them..HAHS..Don't ask me what's going on, cuz I wouldn't know how to explain any of it anymore anyways..Cuz I've let it all out from my eyes..The only way I know how and the only way I know can relive me from the pain, hurt & disappointment..And I told my thoughts to a trusted person..So I have pretty much let it all out..Hah.. And thank you too for accepting me the way I am..Even my bad evil ways (it seems so, looking at the number of pple who mention the 'unadvisable' things that i do and with such vehemency, thus I conclude what I do are BAD & evil ah..)It really means alot to me that you both are able to accept me the way I am, my strength and especially especially especially my weaknesses..I really do appreciate and cherish that alot..I can't and won't change myself no matter for how nor for what..So if people think that I am THAT bad, then I guess I will just let it be la.. God, I've had enough of all these.. One more thing, one to add the cherry to the top of the cake.. I am fucking broke now!! Stupid idiots! Cuz of you two fuckers now I'm fucking broke! *grrh* Money money, where art thou~!!!! god take my life.i dun deserve to live. [[ ßǒŃńįè MǻЯΐä ŔōŜě ]] contemplating the meaning @ 12:43 PM
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