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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.  
Tuesday, March 25, 2008 guys..i'd appreciate it if u'd just let me be ryt now..let me come to terms to the things that already are, at my own tym..pls don't rush me..and my dear fren, it is not your fault..pls understand that..i'm not blaming u, or u either, girl..and neither do i blame myself..i still have the common sense of knowing it is takdir..it's fated to be like this..no one could have guessed all this could have happened, but it did.. from the bottom of my heart, you guys are still my bestfriends, just like how we were..we still are..but i guess my common logic (and my guess would be anyone's as well) wud tell me that our bestfriends dynamics have been upturned with this turn of events..honestly, i dont understand myself why i cant bring myself to face this new change.. my dear fren, you had always helped me out when i needed help, and i know you'll always help me out when i need help..you have gained alot of my trust since the day you returned what you borrowed from me, and i'd NEVER EVER have the heart to replace our friendship that i treasure so much with anything else at all..NEvER..amongst all my guy friends, you are the one guy friend who i trust the most & seburuk2 aku, kau trime aku seadenye & seburuk2 kau pun, ur still the bestest of my guy bestfriends.. and for u my dear girl, i know ur disappointed..i'm really sorry for my actions, but i just don't understand certain things, you know? yes, i know u deserve someone better cuz u so deserve someone better, and i know u know that as well..yes, and i love to see you happy rather then sad or angry or disappointed or upset, and i know u know that..if u dun know that, then i guess u dun know me well enuf as i thought u have had in the 2 yrs of ups & downs we shared together..you have always been one of my closest confident, one of few who i turn to when i have my worries, one of few who i share my problems with..you still are in my heart, and u still will be..maybe i havent been such a good fren to you as i have shud, and i apologise for everything..seburuk2 aku pun, kau terime, and seburuk2 kau pun, kau tetap kawan sejati aku, i just want you to know that ur still my bestfriend till the end..it's just that..that thing that happened frizzled me shocked..you know..? honestly guys? i really feel miserable about this whole issue..perhaps it's nothing much to do with what really happened, maybe more to like why my reactions are so damn drastic, even i have to admit to my own self..like most probably the rest would say, i'm making a big deal out of a small thing..hahax..let them say..i cant please everyone, you know? u know what guys? i just wish this could blow over..i know it will, one day..and i hope that one day i'll come around..i know i will, one day..and i hope that u guys can forgive me for my actions..and somehow, i dunno why but i somehow get this feeling that when the day comes that i have accepted what have happened and that i finally come around & im able to face u guys, would also be a day that you guys myt not be ready to forgive me..if my gut feeling is right, and if that were to happen, i hope that one day, things will turn out right..i really dun wanna lose you guys, cuz i love you guys alot & i treasure our friendship more than i'd ever be able to express it.. Last but not least, i'm really sorry & i apologise for my reactions & actions following it..to tell u guys the truth, i myt not be able to face u guys till im ready..n that also myt mean seeing u guys on the street & avoiding u guys..im sorry if that happens.. just let me be for now, okie? this is for some one who is always on my mind, even though i have tried my best to scrape you away from my thoughts.. now i understand what you mean when you tell me those things at that time, even though the events that lead me to be able to relate and understand what you meant & felt are totally different albeit the little similarity in a certain sense.. i'll always love you.. sad things aside, i'm excited and happy that there's this one thing that i've been wanting ever since forever, that i'm gonna be having..soon..=) though as happy as it makes me, i still cant help feeling sad...... Clydeeee ==))))) [[ ßǒŃńįè MǻЯΐä ŔōŜě ]] contemplating the meaning @ 9:54 AM
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