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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.

Friday, February 22, 2008

I have things to do, but I just gotta blog this okie..Inspired (*chey, inspired sey*) when I read friends' blogs & friend's experiences, my own's & utter strangers'..

Love, something that have always and will always be a, put it in a way, 'hot' topic amongst people be it young or old..

It is one of the most beautiful emotions a human can feel, and yet, with only a little scratch, can become the most hurtful of emotions that can tear us down from inside and literally rip our hearts out..

It is by chance that people fall in love..Staying in love, is another thing..It requires both parties to work things out, make sacrifices, and the desire to be committed to and stay with each other..

I realised one thing..I'm not afraid of falling in love..I love to fall in love, cuz the feeling is, to describe it in the least, pleasant..The thing I'm most afraid about love is, that falling out of love part..I'm scared of getting hurt and doubt I'm alone in this..I'm scared, of what would happen, if that love I share with someone, doesn't seem to work out cuz of some reason or another, we go our separate ways, and getting over the person, or trying to, is the part that I'm most afraid of..

The past few months have been tough, but I'm getting through..Cuz I realise one thing *yes, another realisation* ..That women are a tougher nut then most could make out of us..I've seen many women suffer emotionally cuz of their love for their special one, make alot of sacrifices, stay commited, and they get through with life (I'm especially amazed of single moms who are able to bring up their child well!)..

All that makes me proud to be a woman..Even though we might lack that physical strength, but we make it up through our emotional strength..We have courage to face the true challenges in life, and we have the guts to do what we know what we need to do..Women can handle the labours & challenges of pregnancies, and women can move their family forward..

Women have weaknesses, yeah, but we make it up in other ways..Well, to be fair, so do men..Men = Physical strength..Emotional strength? Well, I shall not comment..I know, you know..In reality, we are equals in alot of aspects, though we are exact opposites in the same aspects..

To that person, even though I know that you most probably won't be reading this, I don't regret being with you..Being friends with you is great and falling in love with you is even more beautiful, even though getting over you was painful..Thank you for letting me know you in a special way & letting me feel how being in love is..I will always remember you, but I realise **okayy, so there's lots of realisations going on herrree** there are other important things in life then Love..Family, friends, career, and especially, fulfillment of one's life..

Heys, we are young..Well, I know I am..I know most of my friends are..Everyone wants to be in love, but reality check is most of us are not really ready for that true love yet..Everyone still wants to enjoy..Heehs..So enjoy is what we do best for now..At least, that's my plan..==))

Anyways..Next track..Yesterday started out not so fine, but unexpectedly it ended great!! I was all moody and feeling quite shitty while working, but mostly I did manage to get my work done..Well, at least I managed to get my emotionalities under control and proceed with work..Then, with a saddened and sickened heart (aku ajak orang klua tapi sumer tk ley klua! camne tk sedey, asyik kene 'rejected' jeerr..not anyone's fault, but still!) I went down to GR PH after work to check out my roster and to buy dinner..

And guess what???! Tehreem, hafiz, darin & fatin was outside PH! I was damn happy sia! Even though i only get to meet hafiz & teh for a while, it still makes no difference to me..I was just plain happy to see my close friends ***heeee~~***

It got down to me, darin n fatin cuz fiz n teh went home..THen fatin had to go back working cuz it was her break tym when I went down..Me & rin decide to eat there..Been donkey ages since we last dined there! or any PH for that matter..Ages as in more then a year! Lol..The last tym we dined there was when I first started working there and it's been like 2 yrs back! lol..i had crayfish while darin had her lasagne..she was so full cuz she had banquet earlier on..then we lepak for a while..it's so good to spend tym with my good friends!! been donkey years since i've last chatted and spent tym w her, so it's just good to be able to be with her for a few hours..**hang on tight okai beb & i luv u!**

then we went our separate ways..i was walking on my way home on the usual route back home frm GR when seri n her sis was waving at me like mad from under their block! lols..we then hanged out doing cartwheels! lol! it was damn fun! i didnt realise that cartwheeling is not something that everyone can do! lol..i thought that anyone can do CWs..ahx..i was wrong..lol..well, i could do, on one side..couldnt do it tho when i try to do on the other..lols..**well, seri, dun give up..u can do it!** then had a chat w seri for a while..hehe..

I went back home, feeling all happy..===)))

and today i'm going out with my dear friends!!! *****wheeee~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!****
so bloody estatic..===)))

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