[[fireshamie]] simple innocence of the heart, mind & soul..

Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

It was about this timing, 6 months ago..And it would be six..

Pls dun reprimand me abt this, guys..Trust me, I really had tried very damn hard..It's really not easy for me to just forget what was, and still is, special to me once..It matters not the amount of time, it matters how the time was spent..It matters not if I'm the only one who is still doing this, it matters that I'm still doing this sincerely..It also matters not, if I am or was the only one who was sincere abt this, as long as I know, that what had past was true on my part..I dont really care if anyone agrees or disagrees..I just wanna let this out..N I dun wanna really care, if anyone thinks this is unhealthy or that I should have just let it go and what nots..Or whatever la..Kick me, kill me, scold me..I just wanna relieve it all..It's not as if I was really damn hoping anything else would happen..I know, if it's not meant to be, then I accept it as it is..It's not wrong is it, to let myself think about something that was once special when it was..Haix..Let it be la..I dont really care anymore, cuz what's not meant to be let it be..I can only smile at the good memories, and learn from the mistakes..

Sometimes, you dun realise what you had till it's gone..

Now you're gone
I realize my love for you was strong
I miss you here, now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone
With the pictures hanging on the wall

Now you're gone
I realize my love for you was strong
I miss you here, now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone
With the pictures hanging on the wall
Is this the way it's meant to be
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I go crazy, now you're gone
There's an empty place in my heart
without my Anna it will break apart
it wont heal it never fades away
I will think about you everyday

now your gone
I realize my love for you is strong
I miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone
with the pictures hanging on the wall
is this the way its meant to be
only dreaming that your missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I go crazy now you're gone

It is what I realised when he's gone..He might not be the best person in the whole wide world..But I realised he means the world to me, despite his many shortcomings and imperfections..I tried to forget..And I almost did..But I guess, the more I tried, the more I rememebr..As time goes by, I remember all the small things that he do that used to make me smile, that used to make me laugh..Now those memories makes me smile, with tears in my eyes and sorrow in my heart..I remember his shortcomings, his imperfections, and most of all, the effort he once sincerely took for me..That effort was what I took for granted..Until he's gone..Now I can only let it be in my head..Cuz it's not meant to be..

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

No matter what happens, he'll always be that some one special..I'll always remember all the good and bad times..I know now, that he is not meant for me..And I guess I have to accept fate as it is..

Aku doakan agar kau bahagia..
Moga kau dapat seseorang yang lebih sesuai dengan dirimu..
You'll always be my lover in the dark..
And I'll always love you.......

[[ ßǒŃńįè MǻЯΐä ŔōŜě ]]
contemplating the meaning @ 1:00 AM

0 Comments: