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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.  
Monday, January 21, 2008 Lost in a dream Nothing is what it seems Searching my head For the words that you said Tears filled my eyes As we said our last goodbyes This sad scene replays Of you walking away My body aches from mistakes Betrayed by lust We lied to each other so much That in nothing we trust Time and again, She repeats let's be friends I smile and say yes Another truth bends, I must confess I try to let go, but I know We'll never end 'til we're dust We lied to each other again But I wish I could trust My body aches from mistakes Betrayed by lust We lied to each other so much That in nothing we trust God help me please, on my knees Betrayed by lust We lied to each other so much That in nothing we trust How could this be happening to me I'm lying when I say "Trust me" I can't believe this is true Trust hurts Why does trust equal suffering Absolutely nothing we trust Time and again, I asked myself. Was there ever trust? My answer would be, yes there were. On my part though, my instincts have told me, never to trust fully. Cuz to trust fully would make me the fool. I had never trusted my emotions fully, but I became a fool of my own emotions. I let it play with me, and I was played by the great trust that I had given so foolishly. I was a damned fool to not trust my own instincts and let my mind be controlled by my emotions. Time and again as yet, I would ask myself. Was there ever honesty? My answer would be, yes there were. On my part, I was telling the whole truth. I was being honest. Maybe I couldn't have said it with my mouth, let it form through words, but I let it be seen from my actions. Is ever not saying a word could mean I was lying, when I was telling the whole truth all the while with my actions? Does it not mean a thing, that I cared? Does it not mean a thing, that my actions were saying more then I was? Why do I often get a feeling, that I when I speak, that I was thought not telling the truth? I was..I really was..Often, my gut instincts tells me that I was not told the truth, that the truth was twisted as according to the situation or the plans, or that I was never told the whole truth, and worser still, I was lied to. I know my instincts was right, but I still believed a word that was said, cuz of the trust that I had given so foolishly, the trust that I was played by. Truly, I am crushed. Lies and deceits had always been your game. I should have known better, but I let myself be blinded. It is because I trusted you. My trust and honesty was never cherised. Well, that's ok. Life goes on. I'm not blaming anyone. Not you either. As you said, no point living in misery. Start living a new life. I am. And I'm happy that I am living my life. Not a new life as you said. Just my life, as I wanted it. Trust. Easily given. Though once broken, difficult to repair. [[ ßǒŃńįè MǻЯΐä ŔōŜě ]] contemplating the meaning @ 9:45 AM
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