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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.

Monday, January 28, 2008

Empty.

I seriously feel so empty just now.
Maybe cuz I had let it out earlier on?

Hhhahahahahx

I reli dunnno la!!

At the same time, I feel kinda sad..I dun reli know why..
N i dun fucking know why im feeling so empty..

Empty and sad..

Hahahahx..

Mainly just..freaking....

EMPTY!!!!

void of the fucking emotions tat i was feeling earlier on!!
haix!

aku pikir pey pikir..
smpi tk ley pikir
tak tau ape nk pikir!
wat im feelin n stuff..
guess aku berserah kpd takdir aje la..
haix..

i just know tat when i wanna haf fun i haf fun..hahahax..

PS..before this, i was feeling totally opposite..full of feelings for whoever tat is..n full of ups n downs thinking abt whoever tat is..hmmmmmmm..mebe its a positive sign..hahahax..dunno!!!!!

anywayssss...forget abt tat..

my weekend is fantabulous!!!!! i just wish it wun end so fast!!! hahahax..

thurs went out w seri.. ==)

fri lepak w farhana..==)

sat went to taufik's performance at BPP w nisa, jun, zu & ma sis..whoot! gereks!! **melts**
me n sa was practically like ... **meltssss***.... are all i can say..hahahax..seriously..i think pple who saw us wud be goin like, 'wat the heck w these girls???"

hahahax..anyways..i bot the album & got his sig..n i got to shake his hands..annnnddddd...i got to look into his eyes!!! **melts** he's got nice eyes la..lagi w celak! ahx..guess i got a thing w guys' eyes..and guys who wears celak..cute ones at tat..well,taufik, he's cute..and..handsome..and..charming..swit..romantic..and..shall i go on???? hahax..i shall not..pendek kate, he's got a whole package of an idealistic dream guy where most girls are concerned..hahahax..i know most girls wud agree..wakakaka..taufik's a guy both me n sa cud agree on..hahahax..n most girls i know..**wheee**cuz for one thing, im not such a giler giler fan of taufik, but yet i find myself to melts..hahahax..and sa's was NOT even a fan of his n she's going gaga..hahax..cute la ko sa! hehe..and anwyays..one part was, he was serenading the lucky girl who got to go on a dream date w him to a song of janji padamu..ahx..both me n sa agreed she deserve to win..hehe..and anwyays..i was like, **melts****..imagine a guy to serenade me with tat song..aduiiii~~~ cair beb!! ahx..ok ok..enuf..anyways..honestly..all tat tym..i was missing someone..................

then cut short, aft tat, we went to waty's house..it's great..=) ps: there was a cute guy ther..ahx! sempat sham!

then aft tat, me sa n zu went starbucks..talked..stuff..

they went home while i go ph..ahx..poor sherlyn! kena sabo! cuz she's gonna leave us soon... =="((.. it was fun n funny..lols..but poor sherlyn..ahx..we had a photo takin session then..it was fun..hahax.

sun..today..or rather..ytd of more then an hour ago..was the day i was emo shitting (as described in the first segment of my posting today..or rather..now..) before going to work..then i went ph..had my own fun there..ahx..but still..i was termenung and stuff..ape lagi me frens were all also in their own state of worry, confusion and stuffs..haix..why is alot of things so complicated..i can just feel that we are all not our usual fun stuff, but still i had fun..hahax..pple disturb me n i disturb pple..hahax..or rather i was reacting in my more-then-usual explosive way wen dey kacau me..hahax..we took a vid of muz n jat nyanyi lagu buy u a drink..hahax..nvm jat..we'll take a new one nxt wk dude..a cool one..hahahax..

ok la..wanna turn in..chill out..and prep for work tml..

nights!!

i think i saw u just now.
i wuldnt know.
my eyes were making prangai.
haix.
even if it was u,
i dun reli feel anything.
haix.
ape da jadi?
n asal aku rase semacam kosong kekosongan??
and of all things,
i know i shud feel happy tat i was not feeling emo like hell like usual..
tapi asal aku rase semacam sedey?
aku tau aku masey syg kan kau..
tapi...????????
ntah..
haix.....
ku berserah saje..

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