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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.  
Monday, October 8, 2007 honestly to say..this ramadan isnt the best ramadan of all i've experienced so far..and again, so far, it's been the most challenging one..sad to say, i kinda failed this challenge Allah has put me thru..pendek kate, aku tak menghayati ramanda ni sbg mana i should..haix..i followed my emotions too much, too strongly..somehow i cant help that, and that made me do stupid things which i regret tremendously, as of current things..following my emotions & do what my emotions seem to decree on me is just like breathing air for me..yea, aku tau, ikut nafsu..but..heck, it got so bad tt sometimes i just seem to forget i was fasting..and aku end up puase stakat lapa dahaga aje..dang..crap sia..haix..but i know di sbalik all tis ada hikmah nye..i just dunno what..haix.. i guess i'll remmber this ramadan as a lesson for me, a lesson for my future ramadan.. haix..why is it that humans need something big to happen before they realise that something is truely precious to them? why is it that i suddenly happen to be one of them? it was my own fault too i guess.. sometimes, why is it that we humans need to have a tragedi (choy, but let's say we lose our parents **SHUDDERSSS** or some one we realise we love & tt they will nvr come back kinda thing) to realise the true existence of them in our lives? haix.. i think i've been hurting the people i love in my live too much..i can only say i'm sorry..but i'll try my darnest to not hurt them others..cuz i've hurt one who i realised too late that i love many2..aiyo..bodoh nye aku.. maybe cuz the word love is a really strong & meaningful word for me that i dont want to lead pple on & i want to truely mean it when i say i love the person..love for me has many different levels of comfort, love for ur family, love for ur frens, love for that special someone, love for you passion..the love i'm talking abt here is the love for that special someone..haix.. crap, i know its not the end of the world or something..i'm not that dumb..stupid maybe..it's not as if i cant continue to live life w/o 'em by my side..but..just the thought..haix.... guess this kinda blunders happens to even the best of us..maybe luh..i dunno..some pple are miraculously ace at these things..some of us are perhaps less inclined in this kinda field..lols..dunno la..haix.. haix..i have too much thoughts! too little tym...& i wonder how in the world i can manage to stone with this much thoughts in my little head..lolx..i've been told i have a small head by a few pple..hahax..ape2 je la sham..no one cares for such things like this..hahax..only oneself will care, in this case, ME..hahax.. k la..back to things to do..suppose to do but here i am blogging..but then bloggin has always makes me feel better, other then the other way i usually let my emotions off..pple who knows what that is will know..those who doesnt does not need to know.. [[ ßǒŃńįè MǻЯΐä ŔōŜě ]] contemplating the meaning @ 10:57 AM
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