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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.  
Tuesday, October 9, 2007 Lidah kelu tak terkata.. Fikiran membeku perasaan melanda.. Sebak di hati hanya tuhan yg tahu.. Moga suatu hari akan terpatri kembali dua jiwa yg terluka.. cant bring myself to talk..cant bring myself to face the pain & hurt & sadness that i saw.. i ran away frm things..run away..literally..walked away & left him alone..i just cant face myself w him..yet..i need time..i realised i'm not ready to face reality.. all i just want is for things to get back to normal..normal enuf for the usual friendly banters..i cud only manage one or two..i miss being able to just say wat i wanna say..but i hurt, when that stupid ugly green-eyed monster rears its ugly head upon -especially- hearing & seeing certain things (wat else can a woman be 'green-eyed monster' over?)..does he need to do tt? both are already hurt enuf..but i guess, somehow, things were made more worse..maybe that swit goodbye are just delusional on me..i dun really wan a goodbye, no matter how swit that goodbye is.. one last is not what i want either.. all i feel like doing is typing all my crap that i really want to..but..this is not exactly a personal journal.. speaking of which..i feel like crap..maybe cuz d day b4 ytd i'v gone 24 hrs w/o sleep..haven counted yet hw long i didn sleep..but slept 4 a while ytd..5 hrs..just enuf for me.. crap la..n all this going on when i'm suppose to be preparing for TP..i'm not sure how to handle this..but i'll try..i really wish everything is back to normal..think right now cant think properly..not enuf sleep i guess..prepare for TP & Raya.. speaking of which..Raya ni doesnt feel like celebrating..still feel the excitement, but generally it doesnt feel like usual..cam Raya ni da hilang seri nye..haix.. wish i can just talk.. i jus read evrythin over..ape mrepek aku type ni sume..tkpe la..org nye mmg cam gitu..ahax.. memories memories memories.......hahahax.....sadistic laughter there..dun reli feel like laffin.. more things in my head..all scrambled up..scambled egg any1? haha..lame siol.. jus need to sort out my head still..**whee** and i just dun understand why one would say they truely love someone but is willing to let the truely loved one go when that truely loved one doesnt even want to leave???? if one really has forgiven the mistakes of their truely love one, is giving another chance for that something precious to a person really unbearable? or even giving another chance really that impossible or difficult? [[ ßǒŃńįè MǻЯΐä ŔōŜě ]] contemplating the meaning @ 9:24 AM
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