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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.  
Monday, May 7, 2007 Today is a heck of a bad day. To F. ==> I'm sorry I'm always late. Sorry that I always seem to thwart your plans. Sorry that I spoilt everything. Sorry that I spoilt your day. To H. ==> I'm sorry that I'm so fucking sensitive that I flipped over the word KAYPO. I'm sorry that you're not the first person saying that I am KAYPO. I'm sorry that I cared and was concerned of my friends' lives enough to care to ask what is going on. I'm sorry that you don't even know that "Nothing's up" is a fine answer to me instead of "KAYPO". I'm sorry that I've over-heard that loud conversation. I'm sorry that I still have the sense of hearing. I'm sorry that I still have sound coming from this oh-so-irritating voicebox of mine. To I. ==> I'm sorry that I'm not the perfect sister. I'm sorry I remembered your birthday and even thought of what to buy for your present which I shouldn't even have bothered. To F.D ==> I'm sorry that I sent you "so many messages". I'm sorry that I happen to send those messages. I am sorry that you think I like you. I'm sorry to say that I don't. I'm sorry that I only think of you as a friend. To DADDY & MUMMY DEAREST.not. ==> I'm sorry that I'm not the perfect daughter. I'm sorry that I am useless. I am sorry that I am lazy. I'm sorry that I always make problems. I'm sorry that I have "NEVER EVER DONE ANY HOUSEWORK AT ALL (FUCK YOU LA I GOT LA CIBAI!!)". I'm sorry that I'm a useless daughter. I'm sorry that I am a useless firstborn. I'm sorry that I always wear tight clothes. I'm sorry that I am SO FUCKING RUDE. I am sorry that I am a failure. I am sorry that I made the house seem like a hotel. I'm sorry that you think that I think of you as maid and butler. I'm sorry that I am a disappointment. I am sory I am turning 21 and I am such a motherfucking disappointment. I am sorry that I still don't have a full time job. I am sorry that always come back home late. I am sorry I have friends. I am sorry that I always use the computer. I am sorry that I always stay in my room. I am sorry that I "NEVER EVER CLEAN MY ROOM". I am sorry that you have never seen me clean my room. I am sorry that you have never seen my cry because of you. I am sorry that I always pin for your kind attention. I am sorry I rarely get it when I need it the most. I am sorry that I "NEVER SWEEP THE FLOOR". I am sorry that you were always asleep or not around when I was sweeping my room, Dad. I'm sorry that you don't let me be me. I'm sorry that you have me. I'm sorry that I have you. To my managers ==> Sorry that I always turn up for work late. To D ==> I'm sorry I hit your backbone the other day. I hope it's fine. To all my friends ==> Sorry that I am loud. Sorry that I am crazy. Sorry that I am irritating. Sorry that I can't be the perfect friend. sorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySOR RYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorr ySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySOR RYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySOR RYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySO RRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRYso rrySORRYsorrySORRYsorrySORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so mutherfarking sorry I am born ME!!! Hope one day you won't be burdened by me again. EVER. I wish all the happiness in the world for all of you. I just don't understand that why today suddenly turns out so bad???? Maybe this is what happens when you keep unintentionally blocking all the thoughts you don't wanna think and push them to your sub-concious to prevent yourself from feeling pain and hurt. And the worst thing is, you don't even know it's happening. Until your sub-concious is just tired of that unknown abuse that it pushes all and everything you're uncounciously keeping back to the concious. And you broke down. [[ ßǒŃńįè MǻЯΐä ŔōŜě ]] contemplating the meaning @ 12:19 AM
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