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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.  
Tuesday, April 3, 2007 ok..after a long time of logging in (ok la not so long tym but for me its so slow jus to log in..cant stand la slow slow..), now i can blog.,. there's something different of me today and years ago..i think something might be amiss, but i dunno what..like there's a big hole in me..or is it my heart? i dunno la..dunno what to say of this topic..kind of like, i give up on this kind of thing? i dunno..i think more like rileks-ing on this kinda thing..haiz..feels like there's this cloud of dunno-what(maybe darkness? lol) on top of my head(or maybe heart?) ..like it doesnt wanna go away..haiz..i miss those days which are filled with more sunshine over my head then this endless cloud..hmm..actually it's more like the days which are more fullfillling..lols..wad the heck am i bubbling about..haha.. there's so many things i wanna say...i jus cant get it outta my head,..i cant even form it into words..so ya..i think it's getting worse..what is? my ability to form my thoughts/feelings/emotions into words..so ya..i guess now i'd rather keep in somewhere then trying to say what's on my mind and in my heart..haha..which is different from who i was,.,last tym so noisy..whatever things happen i will tell my frens..not to all frens la..crazy..like that so many ears to talk to and only one mouth so say..mampos sak tu mcm..i jus tell people i am close with or can talk to..haiz.. sometimes i hate it that i'm 21..or gonna be..it seems like an age of freedom..but i think it's the opposite..your expected to "do this, do that..be mature..cant do this, cant do that..don't be so childish-ur 21.." ok..before i continuing my rambles which i've kept it in, i shall say that i wanna change my blog design..been so long since i've used this format(yea, changed the backgrd pics & colours some times..) p**i la ape hal comp bodo ni alih2 slow!!!! p*ntat s*al!!!!!f*ck it la da*n comp..jangan sampai aku hentak ni bende ala tau..f*ck la!!!!!! padahal baru brape program je on..bod**!!!!! ok..back to topic..haiz..21..cam magic number gitu..haiz.and i have frens who are younger then me..especially now..most of them younger then me..some damn young, like my youngest sibling age..haiz..i dont mind befriending any one any age..haiz..but sometimes i feel so....i dunno la..to some, it's their best year of their life..for me, it's starting to feel like another bad year..haiz..another word to associate with 21, esp for girls..PARENTS!! haiz..lagi2 aku ni anak perempuan melayu islam..wtf**.. ye la..maki lagi byk2.. ey mate sakitttt la..wad the heck..i wanna make spec la..but i think wait for my pay..hmm..but this coming pay need to do alot of stuffs la..haiz..when will all this financial shit ends sia..biler aku dah mampos?! haiz.. all problems like problems which are all problems..hmm..make sense to u? haha, dun even make sense to me..haha..problems jus go on..they never stop..not even when u go to heaven or hell..it jus continues on to other people (jus think about people dying leaving debts for their family members to pay and suffer for it)..haha..so ya..when is the solution to all this will come? biler time Akhirat datang..hmm..even then, it wouldnt end there..lol..ENDLESS..INFINITY..hahaha.. ok..out for a while jus now..un-slowing the comp..ok now better..if not for my thinking or whatever i think either one of the comp things will be smashed right now or not working..it's not easy to restrain but i did it..yey hurrey...ya ya..the dumb comp stuck at every few fcking words i type..not even words la ehks..every bloogy characters..which is damn irritating..urgh.. ok la..one day i wanna start back doing my names or whatever and colour them like i did during sec sch and poly times..and i so wanna edit pic stuff..and ya..whatever that story my bro is watching (yes, we both are up till late doing our own stuffs..) on tele, it's damn irritating sound of the stupid ghost.. [[ My 'Art' Work..]] haha..done years ago..lol (in the most probable chronological order..haha..forgot when each is done..)
ok..so much for me reliving the past times..haha.. chalus~ [[ ßǒŃńįè MǻЯΐä ŔōŜě ]] contemplating the meaning @ 2:40 AM
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