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Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.  
Wednesday, June 21, 2006 it's been quite some tym since i've last blogged.. life's been.....a roller coaster ride..my moods have been swinging very badly these past few weeks..from guys, to friends, to family.. it seems like i don't have problems.. but that's to you.. to me, i have my own problems.. they are problems which are naked to the open eyes.. they are problems only i know about.. problems which i wanna share with someone, but i couldnt cuz it seems like something is holding back the words that i wanna say.. i wanna tell a soul..a soul who is capable of accepting these thought of mine which seems stuck in my head whenever i try to speak it aloud.. haiz.. life's so difficult.. love's so painful.. ok..topic: guys. i've made significant progress..but now i feel like i'm in a deep mess..urgh..the cause of the mess is not the guy himself..but i dunno if i could blame the person who unknowingly made this mess for me..haiz..i wish i could..it'd be much easier..but there're other factors involved which makes me somehow unable to..but whatever it is..for now, i cant lie to myself.. topic: friends. lately, i feel..alone..even when i'm around my frens..doesnt matter, good friends or not..i feel something is missing..i'm guessing the feeling of camaraderie, of frenship..it's something like dat la..i couldnt really put my fingers on it..so ya..but i got my break jus now..with an old friend..thank you, girl.. :) i know i can count on you.. topic: family. parents. why do we all need parents? to take care of us? or to break us? haiz..but i know i cant repay my parents for what they did when i was younger, taking care of me and stuff..haiz.. topic: me. i feel like music is my only true friend..accompany me when i'm sad, or happy, or angry..thanks to my brother, i'm now a fan of iron maiden..ok, so i had already listened to iron maiden before..only now much more..ahakz..and also because of another person, i've been back to my to my roots of music..or whatever u wanna call it..i know u dun understand..and i dunno how to make u understand.. oh yes..another new thing in my life..contact lens! ahakz..yeah, been a few days since i've worn contacts..it's somewhat a big change la..cuz i've been wearing specs for like years..and now i've decided to take the big step n wear contacts..thanks to my fren for teaching me to wear contacts..hehe..i've got mixed comments from my friends.. scary, cam hantu (like ghost), doesnt suit my skin colour, cam hantu (again) are some of the not so positive comments.. ok la (ok la only!!!! i mean, like you've seen me wear specs for like all your life and ur comment is only OK???!!! aiyah..), lawa(pretty) from 2 or 3 of my girl friends..lawa from 2 of my guy friends..ahakz..i'd much rather concentrate on these more positive sounding comments..haha..i'm human after all aint i.. oh ya..proceed to my friendster if u wanna take a look at my contact lens-ed face..haha.. can i play with madness [[ ßǒŃńįè MǻЯΐä ŔōŜě ]] contemplating the meaning @ 2:52 PM
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