[[fireshamie]] simple innocence of the heart, mind & soul..

Bonnie & Clyde
.29th March.

Wednesday, March 1, 2006

i'm suppose to study for my last paper, statistics..but i'm not..haha..
just read a few blogs just now..the 1st strikes me..the entries in the 1st blog i read i meant..
i cried when i read the next entry in the 1st blog i read..and i'm in the school library..

haiz..i dunno..these two days it seems alot of little things can trigger me crying..i dunno..even as i'm typing this right now somehow i feel like crying..well, ok..there are already tears welling up..feeling quite the emotional without a good enough reasons..

been thinking about the same stuffs round and around..haiz..
i wish i know what to do..
2 main things on my mind actually..maybe 3..maybe 4..haiz..
i wish i can just tell someone about all these,
but i somehow feel that no one will understand..
i just need someone to tell all this things on my mind to,
not some to listen to their advices..
cuz advices are what i dont need right now..
and anywaes,
i still feel like no one would understand how i truely feel..

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

ok ok..stop it sham..

so..monday i didnt even study..after parting ways wit aini, i went down to ph..with only one purpose: to give back sufi her cd..but obviously some people there thinks i go down there for a different reason..

a rider: asal ko tak keje, ko asyik turun sini jek..

i mean, ishk..can't i???? i told him i didnt come down to see him, or any of the riders (or the manager..ahem) for that matter..i came down to give back sufi her cd and see and talk to sufi and aishah..haiyo..but nvm..dat rider is kinda new there..he doesnt know i love my ph peeps so much that i always come down to see em whenever i can..haha..but really, jokes aside, i do love my ph peeps!!! muahx muahx!!

so then..i was practically disturbing those who were working then with my presence..haha..singing my head off and talking loudly and stuff..hahah..but one thing surprised me..our dear manager (ok, so it's really "my" dear manager) was suddenly chummy with me and was asking me about handphone and stuff..i mean, he wasnt usually chummy with us crews, he was usually chummy with the abang-abang riders at the back..but waddaheck la ey..so then i went back home around 11.30 or so..

yesterday was even more "gereks"..i woke up around 11 plus..very lazy to go out..joked and talked and laughed with my mummy in the living room..hahah..it was fun!! then my sis came home, and i had more fun!! listened to the radio and stuff..then i got tired and went to sleep around 4..actually i didnt really sleep..more like i was listening to my discman..haha..but then i did sleep until around 9..ops..tido all thru marghrib sey..go makan, watched csi, then go listen to my discman before sleeping around 2 plus am..

so i didnt study at all for the past few days..haiz..gotta start by today..maybe around 5..haha..
i dont have the motivation to study actually..haiz..

Tears that i cry
Can't be seen with the naked eyes
Even with the sharpest of eyes
Couldn't even see through
This facade i shade
My true feelings and emotions with.......

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contemplating the meaning @ 2:13 PM

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