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.29th March.

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

on my mind..

seems like there's alot i feel like blogging today, but unsure where to start..hmm..kayz..

monday - only went for fluid mechanics tutorial at 10..erp at 9, OM and eng. thermo lecture from 1 to 3 burn..tsk tsk..not good not good..

for fluid mech, got test that day..as usual, i didnt prepare..didnt study, didnt even know much of what is going on in fluid mech..my lecturer was nice enough to revise with us what is going to come out for 1 hour..i was hungry, so i went out half-way to buy something at fc4..thus, i missed quite a number of useful informations..during the test at 11, i could do question 1a and 2a..i got stuck at 1b..when the lecturer went outside briefly, i asked jieren how to change the SI units..lucky he sit beside me..yea, not the right thing to do..i guess i was desperate not to fail..then after that i could finish question 1..yey..question 2 didnt bother to finish what i dun know..

tuesday - national day..yey, yippie..suppose to be a nice day in the house..but noooo..people in and out of the house just had to marr my day..i dunno why people says they r singaporean but disses singapore just becoz of their unpleasant past experiences..hurgh, dun wanna talk about this..it just boils my blood..i think i should have just went to the jurong east celebration, with or without anyone..haiya..that was yesterday..but the yey of yesterday was getting to watch CSI..though i was abit puzzled over the ending..guess that's what makes CSI interesting to watch..another yey was my family turtle, boi boi..haha, so cute la he..

wednesday, today - nothing much..eng thermo lecture at 8 burn, went to fluid mech lecture at 9..attended eng thermo tutorial at 10..got back eng thermo test..i knew it.. failed..12% of the paper..really must buck up for exam..haiz..

bugging me - i guess nowadays my introvertness is coming back..feels like i'm retreating back into my old shell..and this pathetic self-pity is like a constant black cloud over my head..but it's not like i'm trying to be anti-social..when i see my frens out on the streets or in school, i'd go and say hello..provided i'm not in a bad mood or something..i hate to be in a bad mood when i see my friends..bad mood makes me a bad companion..or something..other then that, i guess i dun mind being alone for now..

no offence, but i dun really wanna see some people including some of my closest friends..u know who u are..no idea why, it's just that i feel like i couldnt carry out a good conversation even with u guys..and somehow if u guys noticed, i dun really talk much or i talk alot of shit..i just dunno how to describe it..maybe i'm scared i'll say something wrong, which is unfortunately something i've started doing recently..i know people dun like it, neither do i..i dun intend to be mean, but somehow i just did..stupid, but true..

i guess i find some kind of solace in surfing the net, in using the computer..i can spend hours in front of the comp..blogging, surfing..i'll just somehow find something to do..

i also dun feel like going back home early these days..not that i have alot of problems at home..the norms of coz have la..just that, i notice that those days that i'm home early, something would surely happen..usualluy it would be my mum..she would just nag at me non-stop about something..it's not about nagging that makes me feel like not staying home..it's the content of the nagging..sometimes her naggings are hurtful..i dun want to here those words from her, and aku tanak mak aku banyak dosa memaki hamun..

guess that's about it for now..//

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